I really cried, and I couldn’t stop crying.
I suddenly felt that I became fragile. Such simple words can make me cry like a fool.
There may be some women who don’t expect forever, especially facing the person in my heart.
I feel vaguely and sadly that Xi Qingchuan will always be longing for me to mention it to me.
I remembered that Ni Yizhou suddenly confessed to me on the boulevard last time. I was flustered and uneasy, and I was moved and looked forward to it.
I don’t seem to like Ni Yizhou anymore.
Also, I don’t seem to hate Xi Qingchuan anymore.
It seems, it’s not just not annoying.
Later, Xi Qingchuan went to the bathroom and wrung a hot towel for me. I cried happily and accumulated a lot of emotions in my heart.
Including Ni Yizhou telling me that his mother had Alzheimer’s.
Including the fact that Xiaoshi almost entered the water yesterday, and said something like that to me this morning.
I am willing to be quite strong for me, and looking at it now is just vulnerable.
These small fragments condensed together and turned into a sharp blade, which can pierce my blood dripping.
Finally I cried enough, Xi Qingchuan handed me a glass of warm water, I drank it slowly, hiccuped dumbly, and looked at him.
The white window curtains were pulled in the room, and the bright sunshine outside was blocked out of the window. The room was cool and comfortable. In front of me was sitting cross-legged, a handsome guy with a thunderbolt eye, looking at me with a compassionate look.
“Poor Xiao Shengsheng.” He fiddled with my hair: “Is that touching my words?”
“Don’t talk to me in grandma’s tone.” I pushed aside and he always moved my hand.
“I used to think that grandma called you Xiao Shengsheng disgusting, but now I think it sounds pretty good. I will also call you Xiao Shengsheng in the future, OK?”
“Why?” I went to look at his radiant eyes.
“I think it sounds good.”
“No, I mean, why didn’t you divorce me?”
“You must know the reason?”
“Ok.”
He held my shoulders and thought very seriously: “I don’t know.”
I was choked to death by his answer: “Don’t know?”
“Sometimes in life, I need to be a little confused, why have to figure out everything so clearly?” He pulled me to lie down: “I’m going to be dehydrated when I cry, and forget everything after I sleep.”
“I will forget what you told me forever.”
“It doesn’t matter if you forget, I will tell you often.” He put me in his arms.
Xi Qingchuan’s embrace is the warmest in the cool bedroom.
I don’t know if Xi Qingchuan is someone who makes promises to others easily, but after today’s conversation, I feel that I don’t understand him more and more.
His breath spit on the back of my neck, itchy.
I curled my neck, and he deliberately blew into my neck, itchy I curled up and almost laughed.
He squeezed my shoulder and turned me around, and we lay face to face.
“Xiao Sheng, do you think that little curly hair is particularly cute?”
“Huh?” I thought for a while: “Oh, you mean Engineer Zhang’s little daughter?”
“Well, fat, very sensual.” Look at what adjective he is.
“Do you like kids very much?”
“So fat, who doesn’t like it?” He stared at me intently, making me uncomfortable.
“Why?” I turned my face.
“Can we give birth to such a fat little girl?”
I’m dumb, I’m really not sure whether I can give birth to a fat girl, and our topic seems to be super.
Xi Qingchuan first talked to me about forever, and then talked to me about having children.
No, this is completely beyond the essence of my marriage with Xi Qingchuan.
Our marriage is just an empty shell, with only a thin layer of paper on the outside, which can be opened with a finger.
I didn’t answer his question, closed my eyes and pretended to be asleep.
I don’t know what I am afraid of, what is cowardice, what is counseling.
I slept until the sun was so hot, I opened my eyes and I was the only person in the room.
Xi Qingchuan didn’t know where he ended up.
I sat on the bed for a long time, until someone knocked on my door.
I went to open it and Xiao Shi stood at the door: “Are you awake, Xiao Sheng, or did I interrupt your sleep?”
“No, I just woke up.”
“Well, Qing Chuan asked us to go to the amusement park. There are cars waiting for us outside.”
“Has it been built?” I asked stupidly.
“Of course there is no, but let’s go and see the rough shape.”
I don’t know why, I feel Xiao Shi is suddenly very energetic, and she is completely different from the weak and pale appearance of the whole person in the morning.
Is it because you slept well?
Is a woman glowing just because of sleep?
I nodded: “Then I will wash my face and change my clothes.”
“Okay, I’ll go to the living room and wait for you first.”
I went into the room and washed my face, put some sunscreen on, and even the makeup was not applied.
Because I was going to the construction site, I changed into a pair of loose jumpsuits, found a pair of flat shoes, put on an oversized sun hat and walked out of the room.
Xiao Shi was waiting for me in the living room downstairs. She actually wore a dress that was not white today.
A square-collared shirt with light green plaid, white shorts underneath, refreshing like a bunch of daisies, I want to go over and smell the same fragrance.
I think her spirit is very different at the moment, her whole face is full of radiance.
I went downstairs, she greeted me and stretched out her hand to me: “Xiao Sheng, go.”
I looked at the hand she handed over, and I was so surprised that I temporarily lost the ability to think.
Is she holding hands with me?
In my impression, Xiao Shi and I grew up together as a teenager. She has always been cold and enthusiastic towards me.
Our high school is a school, but she never goes to school with me, always let my father drive her, and I let the driver at home take me.
So let alone hold hands and make a breakthrough.
I was stunned, she had come over and held my hand openly: “Let’s go!”
Xiao Shi’s hands are soft and long, holding them like a ball of cotton.
Xiao Shi is not a person who is too emotional. Why is the mood in the morning so much different from the current one?
She took my hand and walked out. Just stepping out of the door, she suddenly said to me, “Thank you, Xiao Sheng.”
“Huh? What?” I looked at her messily: “Thank me for what?”
“You just told Qing Chuan what I told you this morning?”
“Ah.” I was still confused, and the sun was shining on my eyes, making me unable to open them: “You didn’t say that you can’t tell Xi Qingchuan, so I just…”.
“Ahhhh”
“Thank you.” She squeezed my hand happily: “Thank you!”
“Thank me for what?” What did I say, yes, I told Xi Qingchuan about the reason why Xiao Shi left Xi Qingchuan, but Xi Qingchuan’s reaction should be no if Xiao Shi saw it. Will be as happy as it is now.
I was so confused, my head buzzed.
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