“If you have something to tell me, then send me out.” Xiao Shi supported the railing: “Don’t talk on the steps, it’s too dangerous.”
I followed Xiao Shi slowly down the stairs and walked out of the door.
When she walked to the small garden outside the villa, she stopped and stared at me.
“Xiao Sheng, I know what you want to say, and I also want to say, in fact, you don’t have to be stressed. What I told you last time was just to talk to you, not to give you pressure. After all, you and Qingchuan are now husband and wife, I don’t I hope you will get a divorce from Qing Chuan under this pressure. Everything is up to your heart. If you fall in love with Qing Chuan, then I bless you.”
“Blessings, Xi Qingchuan doesn’t love me.” I stammered in a hurry.
“I know.” She smiled slightly: “Xi Qingchuan is a man who is very axis, and it is not easy to change.”
There was a moving light in her eyes, and I seemed to see a little happiness.
Did Xi Qingchuan promise her something just now? How come Xiao Sheng sees me like that, not only doesn’t he mind, he is also full of happiness?
I pursed my lips, not knowing what to say.
Xiao Shi suddenly pulled down my hand: “You wrinkled the corners of your pajamas.”
Only then did I realize that I was stirring the corners of Xi Qingchuan’s clothes unconsciously.
Xiao Shi has been holding my wrist: “Xiao Sheng, in fact, I have always been very sorry before. You have never experienced a happy time in our house. You dare not express what you want. If you want Xi Qing Chuan, I can give it to you, really.”
“No, no, no, no…” I have a poor vocabulary and only produce single-syllable words.
“You have to understand what you want, and fight for it if you want it. Nothing must belong to anyone.” Xiao Shi is very sincere, and sincerely I have no self-confidence.
I can only desperately express that I have no covetous heart for Xi Qingchuan: “You have misunderstood Xiaoshi, Xi Qingchuan and I really don’t have anything.”
“But you.” She looked at me: “You are not a person who can open up. You won’t be like this in front of a person who you don’t feel at all.”
“I, I…” I couldn’t argue with a hundred mouths, in fact, Xiao Shi said the essence.
Indeed, I would not just wrap a towel in front of anyone and come out. It was Xi Qingchuan that broke me.
He always came in suddenly when I was taking a shower, always got into my quilt when I fell asleep.
Before me and him, it became a very strange state.
It is a husband and wife, not a husband and wife.
“Xiao Shi, Xiao Shi, listen to me.” I let people listen to me, but I couldn’t say a word.
She squeezed my hand understandingly: “I understand, a man like Qing Chuan, the girl next to him will not fail, and no one can escape his charm.”
“Xiao Shi.” I looked into her eyes. Her eyes were beautiful, hidden in the moonlight that was not so good tonight.
She drew her long curly hair and held my hand again: “You really don’t want to be pressured, and pursue your own heart. I also told Qing Chuan, don’t force you, don’t force yourself, it’s too soon, I I’m leaving.”
I understood Xiao Shi’s words, but I didn’t understand it, confused and dizzy.
I watched Xiao Shi walk out of the garden door, heard the sound of the car starting and drove away, then I turned around.
Subconsciously raised his head and looked upstairs, he saw the window in Xi Qingchuan’s room on the second floor. He was standing there looking at me.
I don’t know if he heard me and Xiao Shi, it was dark at night, and I couldn’t see his face clearly.
He and I just looked at each other, and my head hurt when I looked up.
I finally heard Xi Qingchuan’s impatient voice yelling: “Are you going to stand there forever?”
I hurried in. There were mosquitoes in the early summer, my legs were exposed, and I was bitten by mosquitoes.
Generally, mosquitoes would not bite me when Qiaoyi was in, but now when Qiaoyi is not there, they will bite me.
I stood in front of Xi Qingchuan and grabbed my leg. He had water hanging on his hand. I didn’t know when it was hung. I also held the iron rack for hanging the bottle.
“What happened to the legs?”
“Mosquito bites me.”
“You stand in the garden for a while, and the mosquitoes in my garden will be full.” He is extremely mean and I am used to it.
How come every time I see Xiaoshi, it treats me very badly.
“Tonight, I will sleep on the sofa.” I said, “I have to take care of you when you are sick.”
“If you grab your leg again, it will rot.”
“You are so vicious, curse my legs will rot.”
“There is mosquito water in the medicine box in the drawer over there. Bring it.”
“Oh.” I went over to take it, found it and prepared to spray, he snatched it very fiercely: “Sit down!”
I just sat down on the sofa and he sprayed me with his hand with no hanging water.
“I can come by myself.”
He sprayed and counted: “One, two, three… one more bite, just to make up for thirteen.”
I am dispirited, my body is limp, and my eyes are half closed.
My mood fluctuated wildly, mood swings were extremely unstable, and I needed to rest.
By the way, read my own heart, what am I thinking.
What do I want.
Xi Qingchuan was pinching my nose: “I have no way to hug you, you go to bed to sleep.”
“I think this sofa is quite comfortable.”
“Then I will hold you.”
“Don’t.” I opened my eyes immediately: “I’ll do it myself, I won’t bother you.”
He still had a needle in his hand, and then threw the needle off again.
I honestly slept next to him, but I was extremely afraid that Xiao Shi would forget something and suddenly came back.
I raised my head and looked around the room.
“What are you looking for?”
“What’s the fall of the flute and poem?”
Xi Qingchuan looked at me and smiled: “Are you afraid that she suddenly came back and found you sleeping next to me? Make no mistake, you are the original partner, she is not.”
Why am I so guilty? When I was hit by Xiao Shi with Xi Qingchuan, I always felt like a thief.
I continued to lie down, closing my eyes, Xi Qingchuan was not asleep, and he was still looking at the files.
I turned over and said, “You should go to bed earlier. After all, you are still sick and you are careful of sudden death.”
“I’m still hanging water, I’m afraid that the air will become a toad after I hit it.”
Oh, yes, I forgot.
I opened my eyes: “Why don’t I watch, you sleep.”
“I’m afraid you have the intention of murdering your husband.” He pressed my eyelids with his fingers as if he were to the kind of stubborn people on TV: “You go to bed first, I will later.”
I lay beside Xi Qingchuan and closed my eyes.
I used to imagine my life after marriage. I was lying in bed with him, he was reading, and I was sleeping.
I really like the feeling that I am drowsy and the other person is still awake, and he will go to bed after I sleep.
I don’t like to face the whole world alone awake.
I suddenly understood why I opened myself up with Xi Qingchuan because I was afraid of loneliness, and Xi Qingchuan just eased my loneliness.
I am afraid of being alone, as long as someone is with me, no matter who it is.
Xi Qingchuan, or someone else.
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