“The relationship between me and Qiao Yi will definitely not be that fragile.”
“Any relative relationship is very fragile. It seems to be a thread, and it will be broken if you pull it hard.”
“No, there is no thread between me and Qiao Yi!” I don’t want to talk to Xi Qingchuan anymore. I can’t listen to what he says, and he doesn’t agree with what I say.
Even I didn’t want to stay in the same space with him anymore, so I took off my seat belt and pushed the door to jump out of the car and ran. It happened that his car was parked on the side of the road.
Xi Qingchuan didn’t expect me to run, so I heard the sound of closing the car door behind me, and he also got out of the car and chased me.
Where I could run him, I was caught by Xi Qingchuan after running a few steps. He grabbed my arm and said, “This is the roadway. When the traffic is coming and going, don’t joke about your life.”
There were no stars on a cloudy day today, and thick clouds covered the sky. When I lifted his hand away, I looked up at the sky. The dense clouds seemed to have drawn an airtight curtain, which covered me somewhat. Out of breath.
I couldn’t get away from him, and my voice was weak: “No.” I muttered to myself like an obscenity: “I won’t fall apart because of little things between me and Joe’s.”
“Usually friendship is very fragile, let alone the friendship between two girls, mostly because of a man, even if she and this man are only his wishful thinking, it will break your relationship for decades.”
“No!” Xi Qingchuan’s words really angered me, and I yelled at him loudly, with a special tear in his voice: “You have no friends, you don’t know what friendship is! Me! And Qiao Yi won’t be stunned by such trivial things, it’s just that she is in a bad mood today, and she will be fine tomorrow!”
“Qiao Yi is just a life-saving straw for you. You will die if you leave her like a vine, but if you entangle her too hard, she will wither.”
There are no stars tonight, and the stars are shining in Xi Qingchuan’s eyes, and the shining makes me dizzy.
At this time I knew I shouldn’t cry, but my tears flowed down very hopelessly.
Who else is in my world? There is only Joe Yi in my world.
If Qiao Yi ignored me now, I would have nothing.
I am particularly afraid that my life is empty, and in retrospect there is nothing worthy of my nostalgia.
I broke free from Xi Qingchuan’s grasp and walked forward slowly.
In fact, what Xi Qingchuan said is wrong. I am not a dodder, and I will not live by relying on anyone, nor will I trap him to death with my entanglement.
But just now Qiao Yi told me that I was too tired because he had been helping me to protect me from the wind and rain for so many years?
“Did you say that Qiao Yi is really tired?”
Xi Qingchuan followed me not far behind me, I stopped and he stopped too.
I turned around. This section of the street light was broken, so there were no stars. In the night of the faint moon, it was especially dark and black ghastly.
But I can still find Xi Qingchuan’s eyes accurately and look at him.
I have a question for him: “Is Qiao Yi angry because of Qin Guan?”
“You know the reason.” Xi Qingchuan’s eyes penetrated the misty air and plunged straight into my heart: “You know in your heart that it doesn’t matter if Qiao Yi coaxed into this Qin Guan today.”
“Why is that?”
“Because she is tired, I should let you know that the only thing you can rely on in this world is yourself, not anyone. The closest girlfriends, siblings, even the life-and-death partners, are not reliable by yourself.”
“Then if I won’t let Qiao Yi do anything for me from now on, if something happens, I will figure out how to do it myself? Will she care about me? Will it?”
I asked Xi Qingchuan, but I knew he had no way to answer me.
Maybe, maybe they are afraid of me and want to stay away.
“My mother left early, and my father also left me. It’s Qiao Yi now, and Qiao Yi doesn’t want to talk to me. You Xi Qingchuan,” I walked towards him step by step and pulled his sleeve. “When will you leave me or let me leave? Is it the one-year period in the contract? Or is it a certain day of a certain month of a certain year?”
The mist in the air seemed to move into Xi Qingchuan’s eyes. I don’t know if it was too dark, but I actually saw some sadness in his eyes.
We are staring at each other in the dark world, I can’t see myself in his eyes, and I think he shouldn’t see him in my eyes.
I was looking for an answer that had no answer at all, and my hand holding his sleeve fell weakly.
I squatted down and hugged myself. What Xi Qingchuan said was right. There is nothing in this world that is eternal, and there is no one who will accompany me forever.
Maybe it’s because I am too afraid of being alone, so I can easily surrender my sincerity and want to have a permanent company.
Knowing that Xi Qingchuan could not be that person, I still stupidly fell into it.
“Xiao Sheng,” Xi Qingchuan was talking to me: “It’s getting late, get in the car.”
“I don’t want to get in the car now.” I just want to hide here.
He said again: “If you don’t get in the car, then I will leave.”
“Let’s go.” I said.
Xi Qingchuan’s footsteps rang, and then drifted away, and then he got in the car, started the car and drove away from me.
In the middle of the night, he left me alone on the road.
Behind the road is the mountain, and I can hear my heartbeat in silence, and the screaming autumn insects.
I was scared. Fear gradually replaced the emotional sadness.
I lifted my head from inside my arms and looked around. There were no street lights, so I seemed to be shrouded in blackness. I couldn’t see the way forward or the way back, only the darkness.
I can’t stay here, I think it’s too scary, I hurriedly got up and went forward.
I am wearing a pair of low-heeled shoes today. The heels are square, thick and hard, and the sound of knocking on the gravel paved road is very loud and even produces echoes.
It seems that I am not the only person walking here, but there is also another myself, following me not far away.
This feeling was about to scare me crazy. I suddenly remembered a ghost story that the fourth aunt of Qiao’s family told us when I was young, saying that we must not look back at night, because when I turn around, I will see my own soul.
If I was scared and screamed, it would scare my soul, and she would be scared to death.
At this moment, this story is about to scare me crazy, I stepped forward and ran forward, the sound of the footsteps became more pronounced, chasing me like a shadow
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