The whole two years is the whole two years, and the way he has no time to free himself from this guilt is when he has insomnia night after night, it is true, and it is too sleepy to fall asleep, it is not half of it. When he was young, he would be scared to wake up. It was all in the dream, and Cheng Ruoer cried and screamed.
He was tortured and almost unable to survive. Sometimes he went to see a psychiatrist. After receiving physical therapy and mental therapy for a year, he was able to free himself from this pain, but Cheng Ruoer remained the same. He couldn’t touch the scars in his heart.
Even after he met Su Kexin, he fell in love with this kind and gentle girl, but he still gave Cheng Ruoer a small corner in his heart. This oneself once loved so deeply that it was because of him that he lost his life and there was a girl that he always had no way of letting himself forget it.
Sometimes when Cheng Ruo’er appeared in the cemetery, he had the first reaction. Some shocked that after hearing her about being rescued in Cheng’s family, he realized that he was there. He was happy and at the same time. There was a stone in his heart at that moment and finally shattered into powder. It was that after many years, he breathed so easily for the first time.
At that time, he had fallen in love with Cheng Kexin deeply, even if Cheng Ruoer was still alive, there was no possibility between them. However, he has never doubted that Cheng Ruoer had said something to do or did something. Although it was no longer, he thought that someone was her but still had a special place in his life.
Later, when he and Su Kexin separated, he began to know that Cheng Ruoer had a snake trick and started to hate her or hate her. Yes, he hated it, and it turned bad. Cheng Ruoer was for the relationship they had when they were young. He never regretted it.
Well, there is never a good memory in his life because Cheng Ruoer’s temperament has changed and he was tarnished. At the very least, he had them at that time. The true heart is relatively, pure and happy.
Now when I think about it, Gu Chi only feels full, what is the beauty of mocking? What is innocence? It turned out that everything was nothing but he thought it was nothing. All this is nothing but a trap. He cherishes it and keeps it in his heart for so many years. The relationship is nothing but a stepping stone to her.
“I don’t want to hurt you!” Cheng Ruo’er became even more panicked when he heard that there is hatred in Gu Chi’s words, “Gu Chi is that I really want to hurt you, it’s me. I loose the tie for you, but I don’t want it. If you are dead, you believe that I am me, and if I love you, how can I harm you?”
“Do you think I would still believe you said these things?” Looking at Cheng Ruoer coldly, Gu Chi was not moved by her words.
“Gu Chi is that you stand on my side and think about it, okay? I really had it back then. No way, it was me. I made such a big mistake on an impulse, but you forgive me once, I will never again. That’s it.” Cheng Ruoer couldn’t cry a little bit by herself.
“We, we have grown up together because you can’t do this to me. Gu Chi is that we used to love each other so much when we were together, so happiness is all this. Have you forgotten that?”
“Stop talking!” Gu Chi became angry when Cheng Ruo’er mentioned that something happened back then. She was so embarrassed to talk about feelings with him back then! She just played him like a fool.
“Cheng Ruoer once liked you back then, and I regret it so far in my life, the most stupid thing! If I can go back to the past and choose something, I will never know you!”
Staring at Cheng Ruoer angrily and earnestly is because Gu Chi said so clearly that he completely denied his ignorance and affection when he was young.
Looking at Gu Chi in a daze, Cheng Ruo’er had tears falling in large drops and it quickly soaked the bed sheet underneath. How could this be? She always thought that Gu Chi had something in her heart, otherwise he would not be tolerant of his faults time and time again. How could he say such a thing now?
They used to be so happy because they have embraced so much happiness, but now he even said that he regretted knowing her. How could he regret it!
What should she do if he regrets it?