“Huo tingshen, the reason why you hesitated just now is that you are not sure who is more important, me or her. After weighing it, you think that ye wanluo has your second brother, so you say, I am more important, right?”
“Tenderness, everyone has a past. It’s wrong to grasp other people’s past and face the future.”
“That’s right, I have it too, and my past is not so bright. Therefore, I will no longer give myself to a man who hesitates when choosing between me and another woman because of a momentary touch, a moment of gratitude, and a moment of inexplicable but suppressable feelings.
What I want is not because of attraction, but a little love, and even more and more love in the future. I don’t want to be sure, I’m… very insecure about men, in other words, I don’t trust men.
Because I didn’t believe it enough, when I saw Gao Muran betraying me, I was in pain and sad, but instead of tearing up with Gao Muran and Song Ruo, I digested the pain by myself, and then broke up with Gao Muran without giving him any chance to explain. He said I’m resolute, but only I know that I am so resolute because he who once gave me a sense of security has destroyed this sense of security.
I know that I’m not good at emotionally, but the shadow that Bai Antai brought to me is too scary, you may not understand it. I can only tell you that if I didn’t let go of all the anxiety and fear in my heart, then even if I knew that I fell in love with someone, I would not take the next step easily.
This is why I can clearly feel your goodness, but I have never responded to you positively. It’s not because you are not good enough, nor is it because you have someone else in your heart, I don’t care much. It’s because you once had someone else in your heart, and you will never be able to completely forget it completely. This kind of you makes me feel insecure.
Huo tingshen, people are selfish, and I am even more selfish. Yesterday, you said that I don’t know how to love myself, but in fact, you are wrong. I love myself very much. Because I love myself, I will not give myself to any man easily, because I am too afraid to face the uncertainty of the future. I am afraid that one day, I will give you my heart, but you will break this heart. ”
After she finished speaking, Huo Ting was silent for a long time.
He knew that warmth had always been insecure, but he never thought that the fear in her heart was so deep…
He looked at her in the dark, and suddenly the light came on.
She closed her eyes tenderly, and when she opened them again, she had adapted to the light.
She looked at him, and slowly put down the knife and fork: “So, the choice I couldn’t make just now, I will make it now.”
She got up, picked up her bag, and left.
…
Huo tingshen came back a little late.
Sitting on the bed tenderly, staring at the door.
After a while, there was no movement at the door. It seems that Huo tingshen went back to his room.
Presumably…he was angry.
After all, as a high-ranking man, he must have never been rejected by women like this time and time again.
The next day, Huo Ting went downstairs. Seeing that the warmth was not there, he looked at Butler Tong: “where is the warmth?”
“Miss Wen left half an hour ago. She said that there is a basketball game in school these days, so she should go early.”
With a deep cold face, Huo Ting went to the table to eat alone without making a sound.
When I come back from get off work at night, the warmth has not returned.
Huo Ting’s face was a little cold: “did you call her?”
“Old Chen said that he called Ms. Wen, and Ms. Wen said that she had to work overtime, and she might be busy until late, so she asked him to come back first.”
Huo Ting’s face was a little annoyed: “let Lao Chen come back.”
Butler Tong said respectfully: “Okay, third master, are you having dinner now?”
“No need,” he turned and left without even changing his clothes.
This woman of warmth, after she said those words last night, is she planning not to meet him again in the future?